how deep am i willing to dive into forgiveness?
some days i feel i've already treaded as deep as i can go...
yet i feel the Holy Spirit pushing me... prodding me to swim deeper
into waters unknown to me
... waters that Christ walks on...
for He has already been into the deep... fully submerged
only to resurface with a full victory...
of complete forgiveness
for all people
for every sin.
... even those we can't bear without terror
& He's there in that abyss of forgiveness calling
but the waves are crashing in my fearful mind,
& the thunder of my broken heart is deafening,
the pain is crying louder than His still, small voice...
in the breath of the moment i'm incredibly aware that i have a choice
a hard choice
a painful choice
to either allow my eyes to be captured by the turmoil
the heart ache
to fix my gaze on Jesus
Who is not thrown by the storm
or tossed by the waves of fear
Who knows the pain of this offense personally
for He Himself bore the consequences of this sin
with full knowledge of this betrayal
He was pleased to make the offender His own...
if i choose to stop here
because i've already gone so far
or don't know how to go further...
then i'll drown in my unforgiveness.
but if i move forward
forgiving as Christ forgives
then i'm running toward His open arms
& that voice that stills the storm
... & if for only that reason
forgiveness is not the ignorant choice
& we should never mistake the peace of Jesus in the storm
for a lack of knowledge of severity
or an absence of caring...
for it is the new way to true life
Isaiah 43... "forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. see, I am doing a new thing! now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert & streams in the wasteland... I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions, for My own sake, & remembers your sins no more..."